Questions....

I really don't know where this is going, and I may or may not even publish it. There has been, however, something gnawing in my mind. I can't put my finger on it. I figured writing it down might make some sense of it.

I originally started this blog as a way to vent life's frustrations. I put things into perspective for myself that, when others read, my life's trial and tribulations brought laughter and joy to others. Sometimes my venting got out of hand. Some people got upset. Some people, maybe all of you, think I need to seek some help or get some medication. I went to a therapist once. Once. I won't go again. Although the circumstances of that visit were bullshit (too long a story to talk about and NOT worth the effort) my beliefs on the issue still stand. So here I am two paragraphs in and nowhere closer to untangling my cerbral fingers, grasping onto something that needs to unravel.

I am going to start writing something. I will be turning into en eBook if I do anything with it at all. I don't really want to talk specifics about the material that will be contained within the virtual paqes, but I can tell you that it is something I have been "working" on for the better part of my adult life. I have started and stopped so many time for so many stupid reasons that I cannot even count them all, nor give a real genuine reason as to why. There comes a point in one's life, however, that you begin to question the legacy you will leave behind. What will the life I have lived teach? What will I leave behind for others to draw upon when life gets difficult? Have I done, essentially, the things God has wanted me to do? There are so many questions, doubts, fears....I am not sure what it is I am left on this Earth to do.

It's late....and there is a big day ahead tomorrow. School at my age is draining. More later...